Sometimes I feel like I’m living inside a movie.
Everything that’s happening only happens to the main character of a love story.
However, I’m getting tired and frustrated by the fact that I haven’t gotten my love ending.
When is it going to be the day that I smile with my 'special someone' by my side?
When is it going to be the day that I say to myself: ‘finally I understand why it didn’t work with that guy’?
When is it going to be the day that I can present him to my friends and family during summer break or christmas holidays?
I’m taking a deep breath while I read what I’ve written.
I’m taking a deep breath while I say to myself that the wait is going to be worth it at the end.
I’m taking a deep breath as an act of faith.
Life works in strange ways.
We may not understand what we are going through nowadays and that’s fine.
However, how to connect the heart with the mind?
‘The heart wants what it wants’, right?
Therefore, I need to find a way to unplug myself from the idea that my life balance will be complete the second that I find my better half.
There’s no such thing as a life balance, I repeat to myself.
‘Life balance is an on-going thing'.
‘Life balance is not a destination'.
‘Life balance is living in the present and being grateful with what is surrounding you in this particular moment'.
Is like a never ending song on my head.
I know all these stuff and somehow I tend to ignore this knowledge...
Having a balanced life is to connect with every area of your life.
Having a balanced life does not necessarily mean that you need someone to walk with you through your struggles.
Is it going to be easier to do it with someone else? Of course.
However, I know that walking by myself is going to make me stronger for what my future holds.
However, how can I connect my emotions with my thoughts?
If I already know that there’s nothing wrong in walking alone…
Why do I feel sad when I don’t have anybody to go on a date with for a Saturday stroll?
I know that emotions are a tricky thing.
I know that emotions can make you believe that what you think at this moment is wrong.
And yet somehow, I need to remember to let go.
Let go of the thoughts that make me focus on what I don’t have.
Let go of the thoughts that make me incomplete.
Let go of the way of seeing the glass half empty instead of half full.
Let go of the things that I cannot change.
I need to remember to just let go.
Sometimes I feel like I’m the main character of a movie struggling to get through life and that at the end, there’s going to be someone waiting for me saying: 'congratulations, YOU MADE IT'.
Is that a childish thought to half?
I guess I’ll figure it out on the upcoming years that are about to unfold.
Text by Letters in Quotes ®
Photo by Matteo Vistocco.