Actualizado: 8 de ene de 2020
Sadness is what defines what I am feeling right now.
I don't feel like eating.
I don't feel like talking.
I don't even want to talk about what happened.
I feel sad because I know this was our last goodbye.
I feel sad because I know it was the last time our lips touched.
I feel sad because yesterday's hugs were the last ones I will receive from you.
I feel sad because I can't give you a definition of how much time
it will take for us to meet again.
I feel sad because I know that when we meet again, things will no longer be the same.
I feel sad because I know we will both make our lives.
I feel sad because it is very likely that you will find someone who replaces me in your heart long before I find someone to replace you in mine.
I feel sad because of the way I feel with you, I haven’t felt it with anyone else before.
I feel sad because despite my feelings for you, it is time for both of us to let go.
I feel sad because after not seeing each other for a long time, your happiness to see me, and my joy to see that, was exactly what I was always dreaming.
I feel sad because after a long time of not seeing each other,
seeing you again was the thing that I needed.
I feel sad because my decision of walking away, stopped me from being with you again.
I feel sad because, in spite of all the love that exists between us,
it is not something worth fighting for.
I feel sad because I firmly know that I could commit myself to you, if you could just commit yourself to me.
Now, I understand though.
I feel sad because our paths are completely different.
I feel sad because now I realise that I am not as special to you as you are to me.
I feel sad because it was really simple for you to date someone else.
I feel sad because you never had the courage to tell me that to my face.
I feel sad that lying to me became so normal and simple to you.
I feel sad that you always lacked the courage to tell me how you feel.
I feel sad to think that you are not saying it because you don’t feel it at all.
I feel even more sad to think that I am not what I thought I was for you.
I feel sad to think that I am not someone that you want to keep in your life for forevermore.
I feel sad.
However, missing you will become easier as the days go by.
However, seeing you with someone else will become easier as the months go by.
However, thinking about you will become easier as the years go by.
My distance from you I will take.
I will look for you the day I can see you as you see me, your unconditional friend.
You will be forever in my heart.
See you when we meet again.
Text by Letters in Quotes®.
Photo by Yerko Lucic.
P.S. Please, don't look for me.