
Letter #15: I can't let you go.
Updated: Aug 4, 2021
I don't feel capable to let you go.
I don't feel capable to stop talking to you every time my heart asks.
I don't feel capable to block you from my life.
I do not feel capable to release all the memories we have.
I don't feel capable to even close my heart to you, let alone with the ability to open it to someone else.
You are like a drug to me. What did you do to me?
I want everything to be different.
I want our love to really be strong.
I wish there was a fight on your part.
I want you to hug me and say you'll never let me go.
I wish you wouldn't let me go.
I want you to go after me.
But, I know you won't. How do I accept that?
How do I tell my heart to stop missing you?
How do I tell my mind to stop writing messages that I will never dare to send?
How do I tell my thoughts that you have no place there simply because I decided so?
How do I let you go?
I would like to have the answer to be able to take this anxiety off me.
I would like to have the answer to move on.
I would like to have the answer to be able to have a calm life emotionally.
I would like to have the answer to be able to smile again for the small details.
I would like to have the answer to be able to be at peace.
However, I do not feel capable of doing so.
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