Letter #15: I can't let you go.

I don't feel capable to let you go.

I don't feel capable to stop talking to you every time my heart asks.

I don't feel capable to block you from my life.

I do not feel capable to release all the memories we have.

I don't feel capable to even close my heart to you, let alone with the ability to open it to someone else.

You are like a drug to me. What did you do to me?

I want everything to be different.

I want our love to really be strong.

I wish there was a fight on your part.

I want you to hug me and say you'll never let me go.

I wish you wouldn't let me go.

I want you to go after me.

But, I know you won't. How do I accept that?

How do I tell my heart to stop missing you?

How do I tell my mind to stop writing messages that I will never dare to send?

How do I tell my thoughts that you have no place there simply because I decided so?

How do I let you go?

I would like to have the answer to be able to take this anxiety off me.

I would like to have the answer to move on.

I would like to have the answer to be able to have a calm life emotionally.

I would like to have the answer to be able to smile again for the small details.

I would like to have the answer to be able to be at peace.

However, I do not feel capable of doing so.

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